Saturday, May 15, 2010

Livejournal flashback

From time to time I like to post entries from my old livejournal. I stumbled across this one the other day, from 2005. It's funny how almost six years later it is still relevant!

Sep. 17th, 2005 | 08:42 pm

i am happy today. this afternoon i spent some time kind of reflecting on times passed and about times when i felt so depressed but hardly anyone knew. it was such a sad, lonely place to be. it makes me happy to know that i am in such a different time in life and i hope i never go back to that. lately i have given up the whole idea of expectations in regards to people and events. it is much easier to expect nothing from people, and this way i am never let down. i used to get disappointed a lot because i just didn't get why people would do the things they did, or why they would choose to not do certain things. best friends who you talked to every day shift to every other day and then slowly fade to talking to every week, to twice a month, and then whatever comes next. it's okay for friends to fade out of your life, and this is a good realization. i have spent too much time putting effort into people and relationships; shouldn't it be easier? i should want to call him or her, and vice versa. not being relieved when the voice mail picks up because we don't have to actually spend any time catching up. and thus, the personal relationship ends and a new one begins. one of avoidance and excuses, from both sides. we are all in our own bubbles and somewhere along the line i don't care anymore to try and to force old friendships to stay current. people change. ideals change. a lot of the girls i used to spend a lot of time with aren't in my radar anymore. we have different ideas of happiness and about life. these aren't reasons to end a friendship, but when you don't spend any time making new memories, and rely solely on the old to fuel conversations about times gone by, there is no need to continue it. i like where i am right now. there are a handful of people whom i love more than anything, and our relationship has grown and weathered change and adapted to life. and to the others, it's okay to say goodbye to what we had, and welcome in a courteous hello and how are you when we meet again.


  1. i'm in a situation with a friend right now where we are kind of drifting away from each other. our lives are going in different directions. it was nice to read what you wrote back from 2005. it feels good when you can relate to what someone wrote.

  2. I know exactly how that feels. I'm finishing up high school next year and I'm realized that I've grown out of a few people I've spend time with for so long. We have different morals and maturity levels, so I'm pretty sure it's just about over. I accept it but it is hard loosing someone. It's comforting to know other people are in the same boat.

    Love and Turtledoves,

  3. I wish I knew how to diplomatically end things with a friend. She is immature, mean, and makes fun of people outright on her facebook using vile language for everyone to read, yet thinks she is super mom and can do no wrong. She is a mother to 2, a wife, and a business owner yet my 13 year old neighbor has more maturity. I have been slowly having less and less contact over the past few months. I just know that if I cut her off totally she will cause a shitstorm and now Im losing sleep over it.

  4. Wow, that's exactly where I have been lately. That just described exactly what I've been thinking and feeling. I've been trying really hard to hold on to certain friendships... and it's just not working. Like you said, people and ideas change. Everyone is so involved in their own world that we just don't make time for each other anymore. Excuses are made, and some of them seem valid, but truth be told we are just becoming totally different people, headed in different directions. It's hard when you grow apart from friends you thought you'd walk through life with. Maybe it is okay to just let go and if it comes back around then great, but if not maybe something new is best for us all. Thanks for sharing that Danielle! :)

  5. Wow this couldn't have come at a more fitting time. Thanks Danielle, I needed to hear this and it is something that is hard for me to realize. Re-evaluating my life at this moment makes me realize how much I want to be the kind of person that does what they say they are going to and live up to the person I know I am. I know I've always learned things later than others, so its fitting that you learned this a while ago :) Thanks again...

  6. This post is exactly how I feel, and have been feeling for awhile now. Thanks for sharing.