Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Dear Henry,

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Dear Henry,

Well, sweet boy your mama is almost 9 months pregnant now. It's funny because before I was ever pregnant I always thought that if someone was 9 months pregnant it meant they were about to give birth, but no. It's a full 9 months which means you could be in here for another four or five weeks, give or take. Now that we are all settled in the new house everything seems a lot more real than it ever has. Things are happening very quickly and with every little thing we build and set up for you your Dad and I kind of sit in awe for a second thinking about the fact that soon this little swing, or that little crib will soon be yours. This week we will be both beginning and finishing your nursery. We have all the pieces to make it the perfect room for you, so after we paint the walls a beautiful gray we'll start putting it all together. Luckily your grandparents (my parents) will be spending a few days with us so they can help me while your papa works. And speaking of work, the countdown is really on for me to leave my job as a teacher. Officially I have 17 more working days at the very most and it's starting to sink in a bit how much everything is about to change. There was never a doubt in my mind that I wanted to stay home with you- I couldn't imagine not raising you this way, and I am so grateful for your father that he makes this possible for us. He's a hard worker and you'll see this when you get here! Just the other day we were at a shop, buying something for your room and the woman who was helping us asked me what I did for a living. I quickly responded with "Oh, I'm a high school teacher." And then realized that this would only be true for another few weeks. It's funny how much of our identity we tie to our profession. It seems natural and normal for me to respond with "teacher" when asked what I do. And I suppose I will still be a teacher, but of a different kind. A couple of people have asked me if I felt like I would be "wasting" my Bachelor's and Master's degrees by not working, but really, how could any preparation in life be seen as a waste? I've spent the last six years of my life working with amazing people, spending time with inspiring, wonderful children, and I really feel that this has prepared me to be a Mom more than anything. I've loved my time in the classroom, but I am excited and ready to be a full-time Mom to you, and to make the best life possible for our family as the years go by. I don't feel like I'm giving anything up; I truly feel like I am gaining so much more.

As these days wind down I find myself realizing that everything as we know it "now" will soon become "then." This will all be "before we had Henry." To say that your arrival is life-changing is an understatement. You will change everything, for the better. You already have. I just wish I could take this version of myself, a Mom but not-quite-a-Mom, a younger me, on the cusp of this incredible journey, and save it for you in a bottle. I'd like for you to be able to meet this person after years have gone by. I'd like for you to know your Dad in all of his young, Dad but not-quite-a-Dad wonderfulness, which will be just as wonderful as the Dad you will know, but quite different. I want you know what we were like as teenagers, then as young twenty-somethings falling in love, I want you to know our story, what we liked and loved, what made us tick, I want you to know those two people up there in that photo. I was thinking and thinking about this late last night and then I realized that this space here, this little corner of the internet, this is where you can come if you ever want to know more once you are older. Here you can read about your parents before we were your parents, here you can learn about all of the things that made me happy and sad, and in a way, get to know a different version of us. And that is comforting.

As this next month flies by, I want you to know how excited we are. You were our world before you ever even really came into the world, and have always been a part of us. I've said it before and I will say it again, whoever you are, whoever you want to be, we will accept you fully and love you to no end. You are already loved so much, and this was so evident last weekend during the baby shower that celebrated your life and impending birth. I've also said this before, but when you arrive it will truly be like a friend coming home. We've been getting everything ready for you, we've been preparing, and now we are waiting. The anticipation is unreal and oh-so very exciting. I feel like I should decorate the hospital room with streamers and balloons, complete with cupcakes and favors. Hello Henry! Welcome home! We've been waiting for you.

I love you,
Your Mom

31 comments:

  1. You are going to be such a sweet mommy! I'm so happy for you guys :).

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  2. This is so sweet!! You're going to be fantastic mom, and I can't wait to read about your journey. <3!

    Stephanie @Femmena Mala
    http://femmenamala.blogspot.com

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  3. This totally made me cry.. I'm such a sappy mom! =) I'm SO SO excited for you and this journey.. you described it all to a T.. it is such an amazing life-changing event.. Definitely one to celebrate! <3

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  4. This is so beautiful! I love that he may look upon your words are "meet" you and Hank before his existence. You are already a wonderful mother!

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  5. I this is so sweet and I'm so excited for you! I don't know, ever since becoming a mom I get excited about other mom's pregnancies lol. I hope this last month goes smoothly for you all and I can't wait to see him! :)

    Little Sugar Monster

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  6. There is so much love in all your words <3
    I've always loved every single letter, you wrote to Henry and now I'm very excited about his arrival to this loving family he will have.
    He is a really lucky boy to have a Mom and a Dad like you and Hank.

    I'm so much feeling happy for you three :)

    xo, Mel

    http://mel-lifesalabyrinth.blogspot.com/

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  7. Thank you all so much! :)
    Your kind words and comments always make my day- I appreciate them so much.

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  8. Umm, where are the tissues when you need them? Your letter to Henry pulls up the overwhelming emotion I felt while waiting for my children to make their entrance into the world. I still get that feeling, even now that they are 20 & 15, as I see the incredible, strong, talented young women they are becoming! Best wishes for a safe/happy delivery!

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  9. Just like the others, this letter left me tearing up. I love the way you articulated how you want Henry to be able to know what you and your husband were like before you were parents; perhaps someday your photos will end up on http://myparentswereawesome.tumblr.com. =)

    You ought to make a physical book of these letters and photos for him-I would kill for something like that from my parents.

    XO
    Carly

    All this is Grace and Charm
    http://allthisgraceandcharm.blogspot.com

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  10. What a perfect little post. ;-) I think it is so precious. I can't wait to read about your adventures with baby! ;-) Love your blog.

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  11. While reading you i don't understand everything, but I FEEL it:) I feel what you want to say, to express, and how deep it is.

    Greetingd from Poland :))
    I'm looking forward to see lovely Henry:)

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  12. This absolutely made my morning :) It is so honest, sweet and well-written, and I'm SO excited for you!

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  13. You are such a talented writer! You have one lucky little boy growing in that belly. :)

    http://almcrock.blogspot.com

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  14. That was such a beautiful letter! Congratulations on your soon-to-arrive baby! Motherhood is an amazing and wonderful experience, and I can tell from your letter that you are going to be a spectacular mother. :)

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  15. This is so, so sweet. It (almost) made me want a baby :)

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  16. This is such a good idea. I'm way too young for kids but I want to use this one day :) wish my parents did! you are so sweet.

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  17. Good luck with everything! I'm so excited for you both.

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  18. do you think you'll ever go back to teaching once your kids are in school?

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  19. these posts are always so cute. pretty soon you two will be watching baby H running around the beach in his sandy diaper. :)

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  20. Your letter is so touching...I actually welled up with tears! How beautiful! Your lil boy is going to love you with all his heart, I wish all parents were like you guys, and all mommy's loved with your passion. I was lucky and can kinda speak for your lil guy..because my parents are amazing and passionate. Your kiddo's gonna feel so loved. Take Care, janna lynn

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  21. I am due to have my baby girl on the same day as you and this letter to Henry just had me in tears. You totally articulated everything that my husband and I have been feeling going into these last few weeks of pregnancy. It is a strange in-between of not quite being parents yet, but being unable to imagine life without this little person we're still to meet. Best of luck to you and your family!

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  22. your letters to henry always make me cry! i can barely see my computer screen because my eyes are filled with tears! you are the sweetest, danielle. henry is already has SO much love in his life, from you, your family & friends, and blog readers! what a blessed little fellow. <3

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  23. I definitely shed a few tears reading this. Your letters are just SO SWEET!

    Henry is a lucky boy to have such wonderful parents.

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  24. That letter really made me smile.
    Henry is so lucky to have a mom as caring as you.

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  25. oh man, I shed a tear or two. So sweet. I'm sure he'll love reading this some day, too!

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  26. This is so magnificently sweet. Totally made me cry!

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  27. Warning: Becoming a mama means your hormones are forever out of whack and everything makes you teary eyed. Or at least that's the case for me :) That was so sweet!

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  28. Oh these letters always make me cry because they're so beautifully written from the heart!

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  29. I adore these letters to Henry. You're going to be such a sweet and loving mother. Henry is a lucky little guy <3

    Can't wait till he gets here mama!

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  30. This is so beautiful! i am enjoying reding your dear henry posts.. you are amazing.

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