Sunday, November 21, 2010

Dear Henry,


Dear Henry,

This will be the last time I write to you before your birthday. For the past ten months I've gotten to experience something amazing; something that I'd read and heard about from countless friends and family, seen on television shows and movies, studied in books, but I never understood it until I experienced it. Being pregnant is one of the most beautiful journeys I've ever been on. For 40 weeks I've grown you; half of your dad, and half of me. I've watched my stomach expand, and in turn, watched you grow, from a little tiny speck inside of my belly to a full-grown baby, ready to come out into the world. I've felt you move, kick, turn and toss. I've felt emotional, overcome with the idea that your papa and I have created this life, this person...you. There's been days where I just sit and look down at you, dreaming of all of the possibilities housed right inside of my body. I've nourished you, kept you safe, rubbed my stomach in the hopes that you could sense the love I was trying to send to you, and I've told you "I love you" more times than I can count.

The moment you are born, you are on your own path, but your father and I will always be with you every step of the way. These past months have been the happiest of our entire life, and I am sure that in the months and years to come, in the forever of our days, happiness is waiting for us.

As this phase ends, another begins. And although you won't physically be inside of my body anymore, I feel like I will always carry a part of you with me, as your mother. Wherever I go, and wherever you go, your heart is in mine.

So with that, I leave you with one of my favorite poems by e.e. cummings to commemorate these 40 weeks:

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)


I love you sweet boy, and I cannot wait to meet you.

Love,
Your Mama

36 comments:

  1. this is so beautiful. its weird cause my life is completely involved with that poem right now. and it runs through my head every day.

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  2. So, so beautiful. Wishing you both all the best of luck over the coming days xoxo

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  3. Aw this is so sweet! Just a few more days and you'll be able to hold him in your arms. That feeling was the best feeling of my life and I hope it will be the same for you too! :)

    Little Sugar Monster

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  4. So sweet..
    hope you can hold him soon!
    Al the best of luck!

    Lots of love from Holland!

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  5. beautiful. the post and the poem. it makes me smile to think of how much love henry will be born into. you will be amazing parents! xoxo

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  6. Such a sweet letter, Danielle! Thanks for sharing these with us! I'm sure Henry will treasure them. :)

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  7. That's such a lovely poem. I hope he comes soon for you both and I honestly can't wait to hear all about him. Sending you all the best wishes for his birth!
    http://notsocountry.blogspot.com/

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  8. You just made me tear up, Danielle. What a beautiful letter.

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  9. Congrats.
    I wish you and baby Henry a smooth and blessed first meet. Good luck! :)

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  10. Oh geez, this is by far the sweetest thing Danielle<3

    Come on little Henry!

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  11. I have recently realized that I love ee cummings. Just last night I was browsing through poems online and then I wake up and read this! So ironic. haha

    But this is so adorable to see it on your blog. I'm hoping each day when I log on twitter that there will be a tweet from you saying you are in labor! My thoughts are with you in this waiting game. :)

    Allison

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  12. I stumbled upon your blog about a week ago and I just want to tell you I think your awesome. :) Congrats on your new journey with your little man; the whole birthing experience for me was incredibly exciting, I can't wait to experience it again. My son is 14 months now. You're going to be an excellent mom; the world needs more level-headed, accepting, and cool mommies out there. You're a lucky guy Henry!

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  13. Beautiful. A letter to Henry from a reader of his mommy's blog.

    Dear Sweet Lil Henry,
    Your Mummy is an amazing woman, she shared the beauty of becoming a mother through the written word with friends scattered throughout the world. She carefully crafted her words to reveal the beauty of love from the earliest moment of life. There are thousand's of people awaiting pictures of amazing milestones in your life...because we all feel like we were a part of your life and all want the best for you and happiness for your whole family. You have no choice but to be a special little boy...you are already loved and cared for by more people than you'll ever know.

    Hearts, A Sincere and Caring Reader...Janna Lynn

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  14. You're gonna meet your baby, you're gonna meet your baby!! I am soooo excited for you and Hank and the rest of your family and friends for the amazing journey you are about to embark on. I have dreamt about the day I become pregnant and carry a little beating heart inside of me, I cannot wait, I know it'll change me in ways I can't even fathom now...and I dream about when I birth that little soul and the first time I lay eyes on them. I know I'll be so overcome with joy and emotion but I know now what I'll feel then is a love I didn't even know could exist. Pregnancy and birth alone have been such a huge dream of mine since I was a little girl. I get super excited when I hear people talk about the pure bliss of their own experience. Thanks you for sharing your love and your journey. I am so excited to meet your little man, but I am mostly so excited for your's and Hank's heart to overflow with pure, unconditional love forever. The best to you during your birth, I am sending positive thoughts your way for a beautiful, smoother experience.

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  15. EE cummings is my fav. good luck!

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  16. This is absolutely beautiful Danielle, and brought tears to my eyes. You and Hank already have so much love for this little boy, and are going to be phenomenal parents! I hope little Henry decides to make his way into the world soon! Maybe even tonight. Babies like to come on very cold nights. Mine did anyway :)
    Best of luck little mama, I'm sending happy baby thoughts your way!

    <3

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  17. this made me cry... you're already such an amazing mama, danielle. i've said it before, but henry is so blessed to have you guys as parents. he is going to have such a beautiful life.

    p.s. that is my absolute favourite poem in the whole world. <3

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  18. Your letter is going to make me cry :-)
    xoxo

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  19. Such a lovely letter Danielle. I have been reading your blog since way before you were pregnant, and now that the time has come for you to have little Henry, I am just so excited for you. Being a mama is the best thing in the world. Its funny how the blog world can make you care for people you don't even really "know." Every time I log onto Twitter, I think "oh, I have to check to see if baby Henry has arrived." :) Anyway, lots of love to you and your growing family. I hope your labor and delivery go smoothly! xoxo

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  20. Aww...this is so sweet!
    Best of luck to you, it's quite evident that you'll be an amazing mother!

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  21. So heartfelt and beautiful. I can't wait to see photos of your family once Henry is here :)

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  22. So sweet. I'm thinking about you and can't wait to see pictures of little Henry!

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  23. I just saw your twitter update...Cant wait to see your little one!!

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  24. You seem like very compassionate, which is why I'd like to ask you to read this: http://the-hedgehogs-dilemma.blogspot.com/2010/11/expect-miracle.html and share it with your readers. Thank you in advance for your time.

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  25. Your letters to Henry are so heartfelt and beautiful - I love them so much, and I just know one day I'll want to be a mom like you! Thanks for being such a inspiration! You rock!!

    XOXO.

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  26. Congrats! I so happy for you! Can't wait to see pictures of your baby boy!

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  27. so glad Henry is here!!! <3 Can't wait to see pictures of the little man.

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  28. I just saw the pictures you posted of little Henry on Twitter and he's gorgeous! Congratulations!

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  29. my little man is henry as well! and i'm about to give birth to our second little boy, ezra atticus. being a mom is the best thing ever. there aren't enough words to describe the beauty of motherhood. i see you've had your sweet henry boy, and i can only imagine how your soul and heart are positively exploding right now.

    this letter is so beautiful, and so perfect. what a gift to your angel boy.

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  30. This is one of my favorite poems too! Can't wait to see pictures of him.
    I stumbled across your blog and love it!

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  31. Danielle,
    I just read your twitter account and CONGRATULATIONS to you and Hank!! Henry looks beautiful.

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  32. That poem is one of my favorites. It's so beautiful and sincere. It describes a mom's undying and unconditional love perfectly. <3

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  33. What a perfect little poem. I just read through some of your Dear Henry posts and they are so sweet. Happy birthday to him! And congrats to you for the one-year milestone :)

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