Wednesday, December 18, 2013
The Instagram Trap & An Update
You guys, I've fallen into the Instagram trap. I think it's a pretty easy trap to fall into, when you're a blogger or writer- maybe some of you can relate? Every single day I post over there, and even though I'm not writing epically long captions or sharing updates, I still feel like I'm getting it all out and writing it all down. But I'm not.
So here's a real update.
Right now life is good. Earlier this week I went through a weird sad few days but then yesterday starting feeling much better. I'm at this place right now where I'm beginning to realize that I was totally wrong about a second child, and how I thought Charlie's newborn and baby stages would go by so slow, because I knew to savor them even more this time around. They are absolutely soaring by and it's equal parts exhilarating and depressing. I cringe to even use the word depressing when talking about my children, but I'm someone who has a hard time letting go of things, and isn't parenting really just an exercise in letting go, a little more everyday? For someone like me that can be hard. I think too much, and I especially think too much about the passage of time, so when I woke up on Monday and realized Charlie babe was already four months old I felt panicked. Only two months until he can try solids? He's already wanting to sit up and is rolling- will he be crawling soon? Without sounding like a cliched version of even myself, I am in true shock that he isn't still a tiny newborn sleeping all day long in my arms.
Henry is three now and three is so sweet, and so challenging. When he's good he's amazing, but when he feels like being difficult it can be challenging. He's the sweetest boy I know, but also the smartest, so when you pair a hot temper with these things it can be an up and down kind of ride. We're both learning though- me, how to be a parent of a three year old, and him, how to be a three year old. Preschool discussions are on the table and I think that is happening soon...which brings me back to the earlier paragraph as I ask HOW did we get here so fast?
Life in the Hampton house right now is all about Christmas. We've got holidays on the brain, and I'm not complaining. I do feel a little frazzled, a little behind in getting things done, but I really feel like this has to do with social media playing the biggest role its ever played and seeing so (!) much (!) holiday stuff shared every second, from the moment December arrived. Or maybe even the moment November arrived.
Some random update-y things: I started doing hot yoga again this week and I don't think I've ever appreciated 90 minutes in a quiet room so much in my life. It kind of zapped my sad feelings right away and I want to go everyday, even though I know just once or twice a week is what will really happen. I've been working on just going with the flow more, especially during the holidays. Going with the flow is not something I specialize in, so I'm really trying to let go and not feel a responsibility to overplan everything. Hmm, what else? I feel annoyed at this post because when I started to write it I felt like I had all of these things to share but now I feel like I just went on and on about things I didn't even intend to write about (who knows what those were anyway). The main thing is that I just feel very lucky lately. Healthy, happy babies and Hank to make me laugh and love harder every day. That's the main point of this update. Lucky. Happy. Healthy. And I hope 2014 is more of the same.
Happy almost-Thursday. I've stayed up far too late (again).