Thursday, August 7, 2014

The Little Season.


I was sitting on the living room floor yesterday, surrounded by two loads of laundry, folding and stacking, folding and stacking. I thought about the little socks I was matching and the little shorts I was folding, and the little sweaters I was putting on little hangers. Little. And that's the season of our life right now, little things for little people.

And the other day I was at Costco a grandmotherly woman approached me and said, "Honey, your family is beautiful. Hold onto these days- they go so fast, and in my experience, these are the ones you'll miss the most." Oh. So there I was, crying in the middle of an aisle full of oversized stuffed bears and socks in packs of 50, trying to hold it together while I watched a white-haired woman shuffle away, turning around once to give me a wink, in a very fairy godmother (of perspective) kind of way.

We finished shopping, I maneuvered that big cart up to the checkout, fished my Costco card out of the bottomless pit that is my bag, and paid for our diapers and raspberries (Costco priorities in our world). I pushed that big cart out into the even bigger parking lot, Henry saying "Faster! Faster!" Charlie laughing with his mouth open so wide, the sun shining down, glinting off the corners of that almost too-shiny cart, and I thought of the advice that woman had just given me.

Over the past four years I feel like I've learned so much about myself and about life. Never figuring it out of course, but sometimes, on the luckiest of days, it feels like I've flipped over a puzzle piece I didn't even know was overturned, and found its place among the rest of the pieces that now make sense. All the rest are strewn about, but that piece, that one lone piece, it has a place.

I felt that way when I was pushing that cart through that hot parking lot, noticing the way Charlie's blonde wispy hair would lift with every breeze, and Henry's brown eyes would crinkle up whenever he would turn to his brother and smile. It was no more than a 45 second push to the car but between that woman's advice and taking a moment to appreciate every little bit of every little thing in that little bitty moment, a puzzle piece flipped itself over and slid right in.

And then yesterday while doing laundry I had so many thoughts about this season we are in. The season of tiny things and laughing children and a house that never seems to be truly quiet. This is the season of growing our family. Of little babies sprouting into bigger people, teaching them everything we know, learning from everything they are. One day when Hank and I have done this job and our children are grown up, the lady from Costco is exactly right, I'm sure these are the days we will miss the most. The little season of little things.

So I kept folding, thoughts going around and around. Feeling sad. Happy. Bittersweet really, as I always say when talking about time passing and children growing. One foot in the excitement of tomorrow, the second trailing behind just a bit, lingering for a moment in the afterglow of everywhere we've been.

So whatever you are, be a good one, okay? Whatever season you're in, be there and be so present. One baby is almost four, one baby is almost one, and you'll never, ever be here again. Telling this to myself amidst the tiny socks and little shorts and small, small sweaters, willing myself to remember it all and take it all in, with every fold and stack, fold and stack.


25 comments:

  1. This mirrors my feelings on motherhood right now so well! I know I am in the middle of some golden days and I don't want to miss one of them. The every day mundane can get to me pretty good sometimes but being aware of the season can do wonders:)

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  2. I had a woman at the grocery store give the same sort of advice the other day. :) Along with telling me that she hoped we would have more babies. haha! I hope that too.

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  3. This is such a beautiful post. Sweet, sweet sentiments - I can relate SO much!

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  4. What a lovely post ^_^ I can't wait to enjoy such precious moments with my own little one, I know they're just going to fly by and it's so important to make the most of each and every one of them.

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  5. Oh, Dani! I don't know you, but I love you and your heart. Thanks for sharing this. My girl will be six months (how?!) next week, and you're right. It's so bittersweet. Her sweet personality is developing, but instead of cuddling, she wants to see what else is going on. :) And every stage is good, even if little moments are hard here and there.

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  6. I'm not even a mom yet and I teared up reading about that Costco fairy godmother! This is such a beautiful post - I love that picture of your littles! :)

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  7. I love this...the little season of little things. Long time reader, first time commenter here. I've got a little girl, just over two and a half years old. We'd love to add another little one to our family soon. I'm in the midst of contemplating being a stay at home mom (if we can manage it financially in NY, or make a big move somewhere with a lower cost of living). So much change, but in my heart I know this time with little things is fleeting...knowing I won't look back and wished I worked more hours at the office. This is just what I needed to read today...that these moments with little socks and little ones fade too fast and I'll miss them most. Thank you!

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  8. this is a great post, thank you for sharing.

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  9. This is such a beautiful post. Look for the things that matter most :)

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  10. Oh my gosh, such a good post! I so enjoyed reading this and thinking of my little season right now too :) Thanks for sharing! :) Now to go soak up all the little things with my little one! ;)

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  11. Beautifully written and such a wonderful reminder!

    xo,
    Danielle

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  12. this is a great post, i like the part you wrote "One foot in the excitement of tomorrow, the second trailing behind just a bit" we really should appreciate what we have and look forward to the future

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  13. Love this post! So sweet and true. <3

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  14. Beautiful Dani...motherhood certainly changes the way we view life, and our perception of time. The little moments are everything. xo

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  16. the very best post you've ever written since i have been a reader (and that's saying a lot because i've loved so many!)

    xx

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  17. Beautifully stated! I adore what you wrote about the second foot trailing just a bit behind the first... keep part of yourself always in the present, so it doesn't pass you by. New reader; can't wait for more.

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  18. New follower here! You put this feeling into words beautifully!:) Put a little more appreciation and savor to my d:)

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  19. Danielle, I've been following your blog for years now and this might be my most favorite essay you've posted yet. Beautiful.

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  20. I really miss this type of blogging. So many of the blogs I read are just saturated with sponsored posts, and I miss the storytelling and memoir of posts like this. Thanks for reminding me that it's okay to be this kind of blogger. I hope I am, too.

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  21. Oh Danny, you were able to put words to what I feel every day .. here as a baby almost 4 and almost another one. This time flies so fast ...
    big kiss from Paris, I am a very faithful reader for many years.

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  22. I can't tell you how many times people have said the same thing to me over the past six weeks since I had my son. Right now I want nothing more for him to be able to do a few things on his own and grow up just a bit. But I know I should enjoy these newborn weeks too, because everyday he will become a little bit more independent until someday he can do life on his own.

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  24. I have had the exact same experience, an old woman in a Costco telling me how beautiful my family is. I am always extra nice and gracious because I know that one day that will be me, missing my littles and remembering what it was like to be a young mom with babies. I'm living it and yet I miss it already. winkandsmileblog.com

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  25. Such beautiful, strong, wise words <3

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